The reason I want to leave is because I feel like my family is killing what little personal space I have. I’m also not sure if my husband is the “one” for me. I will explode if I continue this way. I feel like I need to remove myself from the situation in order to make it go away. Otherwise, I’m still living under the same roof as my husband and mom (sometimes). My sister is pressuring me to buy a house next to her because “mom is getting weaker” and we need to take care of her together.
I’ve never been alone. And now that seems like that’s all I want to do. I actually don’t really have friends either because 100% of my time is spent with my family and husband. I had shared a room with my mom growing up because she’s scared to be alone. Then right after I’m married and now it’s with my husband. I want my own independence.
I had spoken to my husband about leaving for New Zealand or Australia to work for a period because we are both young and can do it. He doesn’t want to leave his parents (he’s a momma’s boy). The reason I am thinking of leaving him is because while things were tough for us, he just kept on running back to his mom, leaving me to deal with the issues all on my own. I then realized that I want a man that is stronger than I am; someone that I will and can look up to. My husband is a very good hearted man and very hard-working but he complains a lot and he likes to play “hero” in the work place where he’s “protecting his friends” and fight the “big boss”. This has gotten him fired twice already. I tell him to mind his own business and each time he says “you’re right honey, I should’ve listened to you”. What if this happens again and here we are with kids in the future?
I don’t want to continue with this and then look back 10 years down the road and regret on the things I didn’t do.
